i was in a situation that would have drove most people crazy....
cuz it drove me crazy...
but in the end it made me stronger and better understanding of life
"when it rains it pours"
my car was in an accident, but because of my ignorance the car was beyond repair.. and was recently impounded
i had a girl who loved me more than i would ever imagine someone loving me.. but because of certain reasons i was unable to be who she wanted me to be... so i let her go
i worked for a few months under someone i considered a good friend. and never seen the fruit of my labor.
my computer blew up and i m unable to pay for it... responsibilities for actions is killer
my two yr old cousin was diagnosed with a heart tumor...
and no matter was i did.. nothing ever got better....
then i went for a run... in an attempt to run away from my problems psychologically...
i broke down
we have no control over wat happens to us we only have control to how we respond to wat happens
and in the end of the day im happy.. and feel blessed i got a a good job that is helping me pay for school i gota a great fmaily that loves me dearly i know that i ma person that can be loved. i have my frist show in chasing my dreams and it was a success i got rid of a piece of shit car i didnt want 3 days after surgury my lil cousin was running around like nothing ever happen.
God works in mysterious ways to help us understand his plan...
because i live soo much in the moment i have decided that i will get my first tattoo this week.. now it is not nessarly my first tattoo.. but my first tattoo where it is visible no matter wat i wear...
im excited about it but yet still kinda leary....
i know in a few years it will be something i will regret... but i understand life and the way it works and i understand that i might live long enough to regret it
love live life...
imma get it at Vintage Tattoo Parlor 323-254-6733 by BaBA
and one of the main things i think about is who i will marry
naturally as men we have this need to marry someone we can take care of, some one who we feel we can protect
but the smart thing to do is to marry someone who is smarter and stronger than yourself for many reasons but the number one reason is to take care of the family in the event of ur death. see if u die and u married a woman who u had to constantly take care of ur family will be in jeopardy cause no one will be able ot take care of them. but if u marry a woman who was stronger than you and smarter than you and can survive on her own, ur family will be in great hands and u will never have to worry about ur death.
so thats the goal in life while searching for a companion
today i woke up at 1030, but layed in bed till DeeJay called me at 1040 like clock work lol
today i took the metro to work and a transvestite sat next to me. Then kept looking at me. Fucking weirdest feeling ever. I mean I have nothing against them, but don’t look at me weird.. ewww
today i felt a hungry, tired, happy, accomplished
today i wrote this listing to “the future” Joe Budden ft. The Game,
today i showed up to work and was told that the shift was cancelled but since my phone was off they couldn’t call me. Anyhow I got a bonus today =]
today i busted a mission from Wilshire and normandie all the way to north Pasadena to get a haircut… travel time. 2 hours
today i laughed, danced, freestyled, sang, got a hair cut and talked all day….
today i heard the Clips made a trade for a player I really liked, but they traded a few players I also really enjoyed having on the team. I hope it’s a good move
today i left my drink on the bus. Soo sad =[
today i ate pizza and buffalo wings for dinner .. yummyyyyy
today i bought some one I didn’t know drank. He bought me a 211. even trade. Maybe not the most moral thing I could have done, but he came from sfv to er to chill with his hyna (I love that word) and they wanted to have fun.
today i gave myself a Tony Park Makeover. Fauxhawk Back in Effect!!!!
today i heard the biggest Kobe vs. the World argument at the barbershop. Funniest shit ever. My argument is Kobe is great. But King James does the most with the least.
today i fell asleep at 430. I don’t know why but I always find it hard to sleep
today i downloaded the new Kanye West 808’s and Heartbreak fav song. “Street Lights”
today i Rocked Purple like it was My Gang Color… Grape st. hahaha jk.. I don’t bang… imma loverrr
today i watched Hiro from Heroes on Conan.. he is one funny fuckerrr
today i started my bday weekend in great fashion..
*bday on Sunday =D
Quote of the Day
"I am only showing you the way; you must seek it on your own. What I will be, what I will do, the coming days will reveal. Human salvation, the salvation of all living beings, and peace in the world are my goal and my path.!"
today i.s November 13, 2008 , today i woke up at 1030, I was supposed to be at a job interview at 11:15…. I called and rescheduled, then went back to sleep till 130 today i finally went back to the studio.. was able to record one new song that I have been working on called “do u know?” hopefully I can get that up soon today i felt a lil sad, happy, productive, hungry, tired, worthless, confident, betrayed. And blissful today i wrote this listing to “Street Lights” by Kanye West, yes it was the same song from the past two days… but I have this song on repeat and I haven’t changed it yet, its really my new favorite song today i thought about wat machievelli wrote even more. And how true it is today i I didn’t call 5 hundred… she called me…=] I got to hear her voice for the first time in a while. I missed it.. today i laughed, danced, cried, sang, and spit…. today i cant wait till the day I can see my mamas again… today i read more of “The Prince” by Machiavelli… (not tupac u dumb fucks) while I was in the restroom digesting life… today i was challenged in a fight by my friend.. I laughed and told him I would of kicked his ass.. he didn’t want to hug me after =[ lol today i ate salmon, but I don’t know why it has soo many small bones.. I want smoked salmon next time from trader joes today i noticed how clean I have been keeping my room lately. Besides all the bills pilled up on the table… this room is pretty clean. today i waited for two hours for my ride to go record.. then when he finally came, he didn’t even call me and tell me he was coming.. just just called me when he was out side.. I made him wait 10 mins lol today i finally had a ciggg, a Camel crush… then I opened it up to see what the hell I was crackkin today i couldn’t play in my basketball game because my calves have been hurting today i got news that Daniel Craig signed on to do one more James Bond movie titled “Bond 23” I cant wait.. I hope that’s on some Michael Jordan shit today i ended my day around 3:30am, with out writing my today i… and also knowing I had to be up at 8 the following day for an interview
Quote of the Day "“Give us Free!" ~Black Slave from Amistad~
and its been the same song of hte day for the past few days...
today i woke up at 1030, only to press the turn off every alarm and escape in my dreams. Lately they have been better than reality
today i didn’t remember what I dreamt of. And it bugs the hell out of me when I don’t know
today i felt Anger, RAGE, pissed, furiated. Sad, happy and thankful
today i wrote this listing to “Street Lights” by Kanye West. *check Song of the Day Section...
today i thought about how I could have avoided this. If I just obeyed what I already knew *see quote of the day.
today i watched the laker game… impressive. Ariza is great young player. But of course Odom is still the shit. P.S. GO CLIPPERS!
today i didn’t watch too tv too much but I did watch James Bond “Tomorrow Never Dies” sounds like a good name for Tony Park mixtape.. don’t u think? lol
today i was happy because i have a great family. Its good to have people around u who will love u and never judge u...
today i went running at oxy i felt so over whelmed by my emotions that I felt water trickle from my eyes… I just turned my music up and ran harder
today i cooked lunch and dinner with my grandma. We laughed, talked, and she showed me how to cook.
today i heard a story from my grandma on how I would always get scared when she got mad and left when I was younger, I would always check her closet to make sure she never left. I guess u can say I have a problem of those I love leaving me
today i meant to do so much more. But after today’s barrage of events, I slept after I ate to rejuvenate my body.
today i realized that u have control over everything that happens to u. to a certain extent...
today i got a call from my grandfather. He wants me to go have thanksgiving lunch with him at Hometown Buffet. I love that man
today i learned the 1st rule to business the hard way “always get everything in writing. Regardless if they are a stranger or ur best friend, get it in writing”. Well that cost me a few grand.
today i thought of all those around me, and who would I hurt the most if I did something stupid.. Kelinda… and I let the bad thoughts fly out with the wind
today i wanted a cigarette soo bad… do u think grandma is still awake?
today i wanted to make a phone call to the one person who loves me more than me, but im afraid that the other side wouldn’t answer
today i found out my future plans for the next 3 years might be gone. But in the words of my father.. “figure it out and get it done”
today i felt that i dont want to drink no more... i shouldnt have to drink to live my life...
today i wanted to finish this off by aplogizin for not doing my "Today i’s" any more. i wasn’t living a life worth reading about lately.
today i wrote my "today I’s" before my day was done.. but just in time…..
thank you all for reading… ill be doing this normally again.
Quote of the Day
"“And men are less hesitant about harming someone who makes himself loved than one who makes himself feared because love is held together by a chain of obligation which, since men are a sorry lot, is broken on every occasion in which their own self-interest is concerned; but fear is held together by a dread of punishment which will never abandon you.” ~ Niccolò Machiavelli ~ May 3, 1469 – June 21, 1527 ~
here is another long lost piece of work that never seen light of day .... this is over 4 yrs old
it hurts to see my people being helpless, stuck in a hole that they dug themselves in. I want to lend a hand , but they will probably bite it, if I take control to help them, they call me tyrant, my choices are slim, but If I listen to the voices from within, I know I can change these little boys in to men. I don’t want to be annoying to them, another voice in the wind, like they father, condemning and pointing out they sins, I just want to give them pride and show them the right way, show them that even though its rainy outside, its still a nice day. you got to make it through the storm to see the rainbow, no one ever said it was going to be easy, to make them pesos. nothings for free, and if you stay on ur ass you won’t get shit , and above all else, accomplish nothing and you wont get respected,
i just wanted to send a shout out to all those who came out last night to see me Rock The stage @ the Knitting Factory in Hollywood. i really appreciate it . to my partner in Crime Deejay for helping me shine. to the Creative minds over from HSent. Big Pain for all ur help and support To dj MOe for Coming thru and helping rock the stage...
and to all my family, friends and fans that came out, i appreciate it greatly ill post the pics as soon as i got them
a break from promotional bulletions for a great reason, that is almost bigger than my showwwwww
a few years ago i dropped out of CAL STATE LA because i went to the counselor and i told her i chose my major. well that counselor told me that i would be unable to do that with my life and i shuold rethink what i wanted out of life because my dream job was unachievable....
so i dropped out because why go to school to become somehting i can never be.... i didnt even finish the quarter.. it was fall 2004.
this summer i went to see a counselor to see if i could get back into school. i told her the story, i told her of my 4 yr journey now of dropping out, of careers, and of set backs. she over looked my file and told me that there was nothing i couldnt do in life if i really wanted it. after furthur review by the luck of God 3 quarters were wipped off my record because i was disqualified for not paying. those were my worst quarters..... so instead of trying to get reinstated with a 1.5 i have a 2.75... i was granted reinstatement. ... but i still had to reapply....
today i checked my application and I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT UR BOY TONY PARK WILL BE BACK IN SCHOOL IN JAN 2009 AND BY FALL 2012 I WILL BE A TEACHER AT A SCHOOL NEAR U!!!!
i love when bands cover for other bands that they are fans of. it shows the true meaning of music.. its not about ego its all about the music itself...
well here u go
Gnarls barkley covering for Radiohead _the reckoner...
so i have been hard at work trying to get my songs done that i am performing for my show.
its been very stressful, and a part of me feels like i am not ready...
but the truth is i have never been more ready... i have been waiting for this oppurtunity my whole life....
"i cant wait around for things for things to be perfect, cant be lazy when ur living for a purpose, gotta stand tall, cant be nervous and trust its thru me that God is working..." ~Tony Park, from soon to be released Mixtape. song titled..."Got to Get it Now" in Good news i got my Boy SOOFLY in the studio, and we're working on him and developing his skills, some of ya'll may know him ass DeeJay... all i got to say is yall are in for a suprise....
i love searching thru old ass books or computer files and reading some jewels that i forgot i ever wrote. here is one i just found yesterday thought id share my poetic side with yall lol
Who would have thought it’d be my flaws that made a better me And I’d grow up to be a man I thought id never be All I ever wanted since I was a kid was to do something big Change the world for the better and show the elite I was one of them Show the common folk that hope is all u need Try very hard and u can accomplish anything We all have obstacles, peers judging what is possible But just follow your dreams and at the end is a pot of gold Do what u love and ull never have to work a day After I heard that my idea of work has changed Work shouldn’t be about getting paid And after im gone ill have left this world a better place
so in sight of all the internet blogging i decided to make one myself. i got too much to say and my myspace page just doesnt give me enough to work with...
so here is my new platform for:
news press photoshoots music updates show updates music downloads poems or shit on my minddd
