today i.s March 9, 2009

today i woke up at 9am because a friend of mine got me a job interview at his moms job. I pressed the snooze till 10:15am. I was supposed to be there after 11

today i I got dressed pretty quick for the interview. I think I was wearing the exact same thing in my last two interviews. Its been good luck

today i so I got to the interview about 1:00PM, to this spot in downtown. It was a store that mainly marketed to Latinos. I liked that idea, but I don ’t speak spanish
today i reminded myself that only once I didn’t get a job off an interview.


today i had a great interview, they said I was very qualified and would be a great worker at their establishment, except 90% of all their clients and workers only spoke Spanish, so I didn’t get the job I applied for… but maybe ill get a cheap ass cashier job there…


today i on the ride home I was quieter than usual. I guess I didn’t like the idea that because I didn’t know Spanish it stoped me from getting a great job. .

today i went to the library to print out my resume. The funniest thing was that everyone that was there using the computers were all on myspace… even the big time gangster. He was the one who taught me how to use the computers there haha

today i hung out with a friend that used to be my best friend. A part of me questions why she is around because when I was in my dark ages she was there. And I didn’t want to repeat my dark ages. However I am a different person than I was then. And this person who was next to me was at one point my best friend, my only friend. But now I feel like im with a total stranger because we both have changed so much. But its good to have a friend around. Especially one that knows me almost as good as I know myself. Who knows everything. Even my deepest darkest secrets I never told another soul. Miss Jones Beach Soda Pop herself

today i ate taco bell to cheer me up. If I had money I would have gotten some sushi. But me and sushi haven’t gone out since I last had money. I need a well paying job again

today i went to go eat with my friend Martin at taco bell. And for the first five mins we were talking about how good taco bell was. Like how in the hell could people not like taco bell.

today i felt my soul was sick. That there was no fire in me. So I watched an all time favorite “Peaceful Warrior” it helped a bit, but it mainly helped cause it reminded me that no outside force can alter how I view the world and how I act toward this world. Only me. I finished the movie and emailed my resume to several places looking for work


today i planned on going to sleep after Heroes was over… its now almost 2 am. And the spot that might be the only place I can make money at needs me to be there at 7, which means I have to take the bus from my house at 5:30am. I guess I aint going in the morning

today i didn’t go to the job that I am currently at. I didn’t even call in. I am just soo tired of working and not making money. Since march 2007 I have not been getting paid for all the work I put in. and that kills me. I have worked harder than most people I know. I am smarter, and I am good at everything I do. But I am broke. And idiots I know have new cars, don’t live at home. Always going on vacation. And that kills me. I mean when I get paid I do get paid a great amount of money. But that money takes so long to get here I have soo many bills I have to pay. That it is only good for one great meal. And the rest is bills.
today i got a message from Five Hundred. Which I don’t mind. But I didn’t like how I was being told wat to do. Like being scolded like a lil child. Like I told u already not to do blah blah blah. I don’t come at u telling u wat to do or not do. That’s a job for boyfriends and parents. I am neither. Live and let live.

today i wanted to write, but gave up before I even started.

today i got asked by the same guy 3 times for change in downtown. The first time on my way to my interview. The second time when I got out my interview, the 3rd time was like 30 seconds after that. He acted like he never seen me before. It was kind of funny.

today i tried to break a bad habit I have developed over the years that will eventually kill me. I blame it for all my troubles today. But its my addiction I cant see to overcome. < br>
today i fell asleep with a lil bit of hope in my heart. Because Tomorrow is a new day… another day to get it right

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Quote of the Day

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there are 3 types of people in this world. those who watch wat happens, those who wonder how it happens and those who make it happen. which one are u? "


~Pedro Acevedo Jr.~my father. its a saying he always told me since as far back as i could remember. i used to just memorize it cause he always asked it. i was too young to understand that he was instilling one of the greatest rules in line. Thank you



Song of the Day

Frustration and Failed Suicide Attempts ~Charles Hamilton